Always Almost There
Last night, my 4-year-old told me that he can’t wait to be a grown-up.
I smiled when he said it, then reassured him that being a kid is pretty much the best thing ever, and that he would be an adult and free to use “sharp tools like Dad” at his leisure, soon enough.
Even though I have no desire to press fast forward on the aging process (or use sharp tools), I do still have that nagging feeling that life could be a little better if certain items were checked off my to-do list.
We need to finish renovating the house, get our finances in order and I need a serious food and exercise intervention. When I was in my twenties, it was this feeling of needing to be married, buy a home and have a million babies.
If I was a little skinnier. If our car was a little better. If my student loans were paid off.
I cant figure out if it’s the constant push toward these little goals in life that actually propel me, or, if always looking ahead makes me less appreciative of the now, in this moment.
When shall we live if not now?—M.F.K. Fisher
Even if every big and little item on my invisible list of to-do’s suddenly got done, I know that it would always be something else distracting me from living more fully in the moment.
I’m not going to chuck the list, but, I’m going to make an effort to dig-in a little more to each day as it comes.
This is the best today I’ll ever have. (Tweet this!)
If I don’t enjoy it and appreciate it, well, that’s my loss.
Do you ever get wrapped-up in the things you feel that you need to accomplish?